so you called me tonight on my cellular phone.
no longer saved in my mind it read caller unknown.
i answered to hear the voice of a friend.
someone i lost and wont get back again.
you asked me bluntly if i knew where to find coke.
i told you i didnt, that id grown up since we spoke.

you paused for a moment, and the line went dead.
i marveled how long i have kept you from my head.
i set down the phone, and i poured a stiff drink.
a little sour something to promote me to think.
its been too fucking long since i worried for you.
since i have felt disgusted by the things that you do.

i remembered trusting your most horrible intentions.
i remember marveling at your brightest inventions.
i remember these things when you hung up the phone.
as i sat and got drunk, in my house all alone.

i missed everything about you, not by choice.
but none of that remained in that shaking voice.